I only ever wear black. It’s my happy color. After 15 years, my husband finally spoke up saying he’d love to see me in more ‘girly’ colors. When I refused, he got angry saying, ‘Your style is too depressing!’ He became distant. Then one night, he was on the phone smiling and said ‘I’ll tell her soon. She won’t even see it coming.’

I was in the kitchen when I heard that. My hands froze over the dish I was scrubbing. My heart didn’t exactly break, but something shifted inside me. Like when you realize a door you never thought to lock had been wide open for years.

I didn’t confront him that night. I pretended I didn’t hear. I served dinner like always, cleaned up afterward, and slipped into bed beside him. He turned away, pretending to be asleep.

The next morning, I put on my usual black jeans and sweater. He didn’t say anything, just grabbed his keys and left for work without a goodbye.

I sat at the kitchen table staring at the empty seat across from me. For fifteen years, we had our little routines. Sunday pancakes. Thursday wine and movie night. Inside jokes about our nosy neighbor. And now, all of it felt like a memory that wasn’t mine anymore.

I went through his phone when he showered the next evening. I know I shouldn’t have, but curiosity has a way of justifying things.

Her name was Vanessa. Their texts weren’t just friendly. There were heart emojis, late-night jokes, and photos. She wore bright dresses, always smiling. Her captions talked about sunsets and iced coffee and “finding light after darkness.”

I wasn’t angry. That’s the part that surprised me the most. I just felt… empty. Like a balloon that someone let go of without fanfare.

The next day, I didn’t cry. I packed a small bag and left the house for a walk. I ended up at a secondhand bookstore downtown—the kind with uneven shelves and dusty corners. I used to love that place when I was younger.

The owner, Mrs. Daly, recognized me even though we hadn’t spoken in years. She didn’t comment on my clothes or how tired I looked. She just smiled and offered me a cup of coffee while I browsed.

I picked up a book on grief—not the death kind, but the soul kind. The kind you feel when something slips away, quietly and slowly. I read half of it in one sitting, surrounded by strangers who didn’t know me, and I found comfort in that.

When I got home, he wasn’t there. A sticky note on the fridge read: “Meeting ran late. Don’t wait up.”

So I didn’t.

The following weekend, I visited my sister, Mira. She lived two towns over and had always been the colorful one. Bright walls, mismatched mugs, and sunflowers on every windowsill.

She didn’t ask many questions. Just poured me tea, let me nap in her guest room, and said, “Stay as long as you need.”

For the first time in a long time, I looked in the mirror and wondered what I wanted—not as a wife, or someone’s plus-one, but just me.

Mira offered to dye my hair. “Even just a little. A change might feel good,” she said, holding up a box of chestnut brown dye.

I shook my head. “I’m not ready.”

And she didn’t push.

That night, we watched old home videos. One showed me as a teenager, in a yellow dress at a birthday party, dancing under string lights. My husband was in that video too. He used to laugh with his whole face.

We looked happy.

But people change. And sometimes, they grow in different directions without realizing it.

A week later, I went home. He was surprised to see me. He asked if I’d been avoiding him. I said, “Yes.”

We sat down at the table—the same table we once ate pancakes at—and I told him I knew about Vanessa.

He didn’t deny it.

“She makes me feel alive,” he said. “Like I’m not invisible.”

That stung. Not because of what he said, but because I had felt the same for so long and never said it aloud.

I asked him if he still loved me. He paused too long before answering. “Not the way I used to.”

That was all I needed.

I didn’t scream or throw anything. I simply packed a larger bag this time and left him the house. The house he said felt dull. He could have it, with all its colorless memories.

I moved in with Mira for a bit. Got a part-time job at the bookstore. I wore black every day, and no one said it was depressing.

Slowly, I started finding myself again. Not in big dramatic ways, but in small moments. I laughed more. Took long walks. Baked cookies just because.

Then one day, Mrs. Daly asked me if I wanted to run a weekend book club for women going through tough times.

“We need someone who gets it,” she said.

So I did.

The first meeting had four women. Each had their own version of heartbreak. A widow. A single mom. A woman recently laid off after 20 years at the same company. We shared books, but more than that, we shared stories.

One woman, Eliza, said, “I thought I was the only one who felt like she was vanishing.”

I knew that feeling well.

Weeks passed, and the group grew. We cried, we laughed, we learned how to stand up a little straighter.

And then something unexpected happened.

One of the women invited me to her art exhibit. I went to support her, not expecting much. But something about the colors on her canvas stirred something in me.

Bright pinks and deep blues. Lines that didn’t follow rules but still made sense.

The next day, I walked into a thrift shop and, for reasons I can’t explain, picked out a scarf. It was teal. Not too loud. Just enough to say, “I’m here.”

When I wore it, Mira raised her eyebrows and grinned.

“Just a scarf,” I said.

“Sure,” she smiled.

Months later, my ex-husband called. He sounded tired. Said Vanessa had left him after three months. Said she felt he was still living in the past.

Funny how karma works.

He asked if I wanted to grab coffee sometime.

I paused.

Then said, “No, I don’t think that would be good for me.”

And I meant it.

I wasn’t angry at him. I had forgiven him quietly, in my own time. But forgiveness doesn’t always mean reunion. Sometimes, it just means peace.

A year passed. I moved into a small apartment with big windows. I painted the kitchen a soft lavender. Black was still my favorite, but I wasn’t hiding in it anymore.

I still wore my dark clothes, but now they were paired with color. A rose brooch from Mira. A bright yellow mug from one of the book club girls. A turquoise ring I bought on a solo trip to the mountains.

And one day, as I was arranging books in the store, a man walked in. Not flashy. Not trying too hard. Just… kind eyes and a quiet smile.

He asked for a recommendation. We talked about novels, about heartbreak, about how stories can save us when we can’t save ourselves.

His name was Adrian. He came back the next week. And the week after that.

We didn’t rush. We had both known what rushing could cost.

But there was a calmness to him I hadn’t felt in a long time.

One evening, he said, “I like how you dress. It suits you.”

I smiled. “Even all the black?”

He laughed. “Especially the black.”

We kept it simple. Walks, dinners, books. He never asked me to change. And in that freedom, I found myself changing anyway—not to become someone else, but to become more me.

One day, while cleaning out an old drawer, I found a photo of my wedding day. I looked so young. So eager to love.

I didn’t cry.

I placed it in a box labeled “Past.” Because that’s where it belonged.

Today, I run two book clubs. I help Mrs. Daly manage the shop. I volunteer at a shelter once a week, reading to children.

And I wear my black sweater with a sunflower pin. A little light, pinned over the darkness.

The thing about color is, it doesn’t have to be loud to be beautiful. Sometimes, it’s in the subtle moments—the shade of courage in your voice, the glow of peace in your heart, the brightness of choosing yourself.

If you’re in a season of gray, trust that color will find its way back to you. Not all at once, not in fireworks—but in whispers, in kindness, in the quiet rebuilding of joy.

You are not invisible.

You were never too much or too little.

You are becoming.

So, if you’re reading this and feel like you’re fading, know this: your color is waiting.

You just have to let go of what’s dimming your light.

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